For those of you staying current...

The blog has been left un-updated for more than a week because I do not really having anything to say. I felt a little low this week lung wise, but that could be contributed to the new mattress. Free tip: if you have bad joints and issues where your chest needs to expand easily, stay the hell away from plush top mattresses. After switching to an old firmer bed I slept better than I had in days. I will just have to use that old bed until the store drops off the new firmer mattress I ordered this weekend. The whole situation will be all sorted out in a week or so.
Most of my days are now being spent watching X-files, and trying to reorganize my room and office. After cleaning out the basement to set up the home gym, a lot of crap got tossed out. I decided that it might be a good idea do the same thing in my personal space. I usually do not collect massive amounts of stuff, and I do a major clean to get rid of the clutter every few years. So this was less of a cleaning and more of just putting everything in its proper place to make both the office and room work better. Text books and other reference stuff go in the office. Games and fiction books go in the bedroom. Old school stuff goes in the trash(second year anthropology notes aren't worth the space they take up, and all my papers are save on electronic backups). The goal being to get both rooms set up so that doing anything in there, be that cleaning/dressing/writing/etc, can be done as easily as possible with nothing getting in the way.
Why blather on about this(besides not having anything else to say)? I would not say I do not have a nostalgic side to myself, I very much do. However I am very careful not to get hung up longing for the good ol' days. I often see people buying old toys off of E-bay, watching cartoons that were on TV when they were younger, or planning a vacation to the same place they used to go as a child. That is fine, I will not be the grinch who stole fun and tell someone not to do this. I will however point that it is impossible to relive or buy back the past. Yes we all have pleasant memories, and they fill us with warm fuzzy feelings. What I hope people know is that you may not get the same fuzzy feeling now that you did then. Going out for ice cream on a Sunday nights when you were a kid are not the same as when you are an adult and have to flip the bill. The plot holes and repetition of a child's TV show may be more glaring under a more experienced eye.
This is something I have struggled with. I wanted very badly to return to the past where everything was simpler. No medication, no overt health issues, no monthly appointments. That will never happen, and I can except that now. Life is going to suck hard, and will continue to do so in many ways. I also know that I am not special in this way, it happens to everyone, its called reality. We edit our memories to only remember the sweet victories or the simple pleasures, and never seem to dwell on all the time we have lost standing in line behind some jerk-off at the bank or 7-11. Life may be rough for me, but it never rules out the chance to make more good memories. They will not be happy for all the same reasons my happy memories from the past are, but they will be happy. And in the years to come I will look back on the new ones with just as much longing as I did for a past with good health.Treasure the past, but live for the future. And I am sure I can remember it all without having boxes of stuff kicking around to remind me about it.
Wow, lots of stuff write for a day I didn't have anything to talk about.

IT'S A MYSTERY GANG!

Friday night I drank a ton of soda and watched a scary movie, so Saturday I got to go mattress shopping. I has been close to 15 or more years since I had a new mattress so I figured I could afford to...spring for one. There was a sale on at the same place I got my couch, which happened to next door to a place that sold air purifiers, and it was all near an excellent burger place. A good friend recommend I get an air purifier after i bought one and noticed a marked change in his own breathing. So I picked up the same model he had gotten, which I save 200 dollars on.
When I got home there was mystery waiting for me. A shopping bag was out side the door, it contained a board game and a note, but did not say whom it was from. This was an enigma that need some solving, so as soon as I unpacked the game and made a few race cars(cause I'm not gonna build with Lego when i have it right there, pfft, you're dreamin), I put on my junior detective hat and set to work.
Several things could be deduced about the send from examining the bag and what they must know about me in order to have delivered it undetected. 1- the note was written on a note pad from the SAIT graphic design department. 2- the note read 'for Pete', elimination all senders who exclusively call me Peter. 3- the killer sender knows I enjoy Lego and board games. 4- The game itself is for ages seven and up, but for 3 or more players, thus the sender knows my age but not how many friends have. 5- the sender kicks ass because they send me a game that is really ballin. 6- the send knows that I won't kill in cold blood, but would kill in self-defense or during a time of war. 7-none of this really mattered because my mom told me who it was when she got home.
So I told Mr. S. Spade that I resign from the PI firm, the end.
PS the Air purifier is wonderful, quiet and effective.

No time to come up with a good title

Just a quickie before I go to bed. My cold is getting better. My lungs and breathing don't seem to be getting worse, all the other symptoms are tapering out, and I (despite my own efforts to be a lazy sack of crap) still do the work out everyday. Still not getting all of it done everyday, but most of it is.
Getting a little long term minded about things and not journeying out into the big scary world lately. If I can just do the hermit thing for a few months(or however long it takes) till I get the new lungs I will have my life back. I just would like a life to back to when that time comes. With technology where it is at today I can stay in contact with people from anywhere. I mean come on, I attended the weekly game night my friend hosts at his place here in Calgary EVERY WEEK while i was in Edmonton. That however lacks the kind of quality interaction you get face to face. Talking to some one isn't the same as doing something WITH them. Going out to 'events' is not much of an option anymore, but small gathering where I know the guest list and whether they are health is. Again planning going over to friend's house to watch a moving should not as difficult as a space launch, but it has to be for now. I need to look to the future: always forward and never backward, always upward and never forward. And always whirling, whirling, whirling....forgot where I was headed with this, so I am just gonna back out of the room now.

Well gee...this is lame

I'm have a cold. I went out around people twice in the last week, and now I have a sore throat and stuffed up nose. First thing I would like to say is if you have a cold, just stay home you stupid scum. The rest of us don't need you spreading your contagion around unnecessarily. And I use the term unnecessarily because I was nowhere anyone HAD to be this week. These weren't work places, or a place with booked appointments you can't get out of, or a one time event. No this was some plague rat showing up where, and I am echoed by plenty of others on this, they would not be missed. Having said all that I am well aware of the level of personal responsibility here, I didn't HAVE to be at these places either, and being the one with the weak immune system I should keep that in mind. But really, if you have had a cold in the last week, don't be going up the guy wearing oxygen and try to give him a hug. I am sure other people would like it if you carriers would just stay home a little bit longer too, No one likes being sick. And FYI you're not a doctor or other medical professional, so you don't know whether or not you are still contagious.
Okay the bitching part is out of the way, on to other things. Workouts are being broken up into two parts most days, not by design, but more just from it taking all day to do them. So the policy of starting early has payed off. Even on the rest days I have tried to do some treadmill, just to stir things up a bit. I am getting a better flow with the work out, I know what to start with and the transitions are getting smoother, but it is still slower than before. If I keep up the work I should have more successful/properly completed days.